I earned this Starbucks pumpkin spice frappe. And if I’m being real with you, I popped the top off of that bad boy and ate the whipped cream first. Yum.
I hardly drink Starbucks, but today I needed some extra TLC. I went back to work full-time since the COVID-19 pandemic started and I was upset about it. I enjoyed working part-time as a Pre-Kindergarten teacher, now I would be spending my whole day there.
For the last six months I had worked 30 hours or less a week. On top of that I had the luxury (and privilege) to come into work at 12pm. For the first time in my adult life I had the most productive time of my day available to me to pursue my interests.
For the last 6 months I would wake up at 6am and work on developing the business and marketing side of Anna Hope Coaching, network and talk to other life coaches in the Baltimore-area and also conduct informational interviews with therapists (I’m considering a masters in Clinical Mental Health Counseling). I have been able to bring clarity, inspiration and mentorship into my life in ways I wouldn’t have been able to if I had been working full-time. I am going to miss it.
The COVID-19 pandemic has been a time of heart break, loneliness and boredom, but also joy, wonder and adventure.
Part of the good of the pandemic is that it has given me so much of my own time back and challenged me to examine what are the most meaningful and life giving things for me. Coincidentally, this summer has been the most amazing in my adult life. I have done so much of what I love: being outdoors.
On the other hand it has forced me to really embrace uncomfortable feelings of anxiety and grief. I’ve learned to really feel the pain and sorrow of this time and send out the opposite feeling of healing and joy to myself and others. It has allowed me to connect to my present reality intimately.
I didn’t think of this when I snapped this photo, but I realize that this frappe was a toast to the past.
Thank you, I’m saying, it was great. On to the next adventure.